I don't want to be satisfied.

So I am back again. Yeah I felt the need for two main reasons.

First - I had been absent over the past one month due to my exams--loss cover up.

Second - This very thing could have just slip out of my mind.

Ok so here we go.

Past week

"You are always dissatisfied." someone said irritated and arrogantly while I just stood there and had  this very desire to offend those words but I didn't because I knew that if I had, I'd be in bad danger and I wanted to be away from it then.

I didn't anything then but since past few days these words wander in my head searching for an answer to WHY?

If I am dissatisfied, part of me is not happy and that would	force me to get better as I go

I wanted to say to her, "I am not always dissatisfied, okay. I just don't get it how I could be satisfied. For me being satisfied is like the end and I see my end nowhere. Being dissatisfied I am on a quest for life and being satisfied I see people moving around trying to put up a fake smile and live the life in their present day scenario but are taken aback by their past and their wishes and their mistake of being satisfied. I don't want to sum up to that mistake. I won't be satisfied. I'd live life being dissatisfied so that there exists a level <<PERFECT, as you call it>> for me and I'd see it and I'd force myself to put up harder this time and get a little more close to it. So you see I don't want to be satisfied. Besides you are a live example of being satisfied."

For some reason I won't disclose who and why but you see the thing is not that, the thing is 

If you are satisfied or not?

So are you?