I don't want to be satisfied.

So I am back again. Yeah I felt the need for two main reasons.

First - I had been absent over the past one month due to my exams--loss cover up.

Second - This very thing could have just slip out of my mind.

Ok so here we go.

Past week

"You are always dissatisfied." someone said irritated and arrogantly while I just stood there and had  this very desire to offend those words but I didn't because I knew that if I had, I'd be in bad danger and I wanted to be away from it then.

I didn't anything then but since past few days these words wander in my head searching for an answer to WHY?

If I am dissatisfied, part of me is not happy and that would	force me to get better as I go

I wanted to say to her, "I am not always dissatisfied, okay. I just don't get it how I could be satisfied. For me being satisfied is like the end and I see my end nowhere. Being dissatisfied I am on a quest for life and being satisfied I see people moving around trying to put up a fake smile and live the life in their present day scenario but are taken aback by their past and their wishes and their mistake of being satisfied. I don't want to sum up to that mistake. I won't be satisfied. I'd live life being dissatisfied so that there exists a level <<PERFECT, as you call it>> for me and I'd see it and I'd force myself to put up harder this time and get a little more close to it. So you see I don't want to be satisfied. Besides you are a live example of being satisfied."

For some reason I won't disclose who and why but you see the thing is not that, the thing is 

If you are satisfied or not?

So are you?

Glacial Contemplations: Words

Glacial Contemplations: Words: 'The man who does not read has no advantage over the man who cannot read.'                                                                ...

Shadows- A Vague Teacher

After long back on desk. Apologies.

Well you see I have many things to be occupied by and one of them is studying. Yes I am a student what else you want me to be at 16. Well I am thankful somewhere and somewhere neglected to the fact that I am not working at 16. Look around you there are people around you and they work--- work at 12 or perhaps 13. They are not greedy for money, neither are the reluctant for a specific accessory their parents won't let them have, they are just making ends meet to live. They are helpless- some of them have parents with eyes watered when asked about their child's mere existence, some of them have culprit parents usually father(people who take undue advantage of their poverty and beg rather than doing anything), and some of them are apparently on their own(they are orphans). I don't know each one of us--- you, me, and they ---why we fail to serve them at our best. God is one and God is within us. God is within them, and God is not denied. Don't discriminate his existence---poor, rich are merely two social differences we have developed over years.

Some of the egotist people don't care about anything themselves so getting back to our main thread of events we'd decipher much more of human worth.

We have big schools, colleges, what French call a complete sophisticated pattern of early living or rather a complete sophisticated pattern of education.

Who would teach us more, the sane boy or this little best friend, the two chit chatting girl or their giggling mother or for that instance their ’thinking’ father? A teacher teaches us the things essential for us; to a little more extreme monk teach us life. I don't question anyone but eh... aren't we all humans, the teacher, and the monk? Aren't we all to mistake and even for a Mille second, I'd assume those monks and teachers are far from any questioning, are they serving us with the appropriate information? What can they do part of what they are governed by experienced and by the time one has enough of experience to preach, it's his doom he has to meet.

Nature in itself is a Godly thing. Every piece of nature inspires hundreds, teaches thousands and rebukes none. Trees, those flowers, the canopy of trees, the messengers of love---birds are all together the rightful composition of nature and nature is our only teacher. The byproduct of education shall be even better when taken in with the very desire to learn, to understand and to unfold secrets thereby.

faithful--shadow

Shadows are usually conceived to be paranormal. The only figure that follows you wherever you go is considered to be paranormal? Yeah, the world is bizarre. They don't know what it is trying to teach through its never ending attempts to take your wisdom to a new level.

It's general physics which I don't know any better how; I am sure most of you  know but I am sorry if you don't know it because lately I haven't figured it out how. When person walks in light surrounding him from all places, then there are three main shadows he'd see (well there would be numerous shadows but according to the position, I'd take three main.)

---ONE BEHIND HIM, ONE WITH HIM, AND ONE AFTER HIM.

So as in our life there are three categories of people.

---- ONE BELOW US, ONE WITH US, ONE ABOVE US.

There are people poorer than me, there are people who have same like me, and there are people more influential than me. And that goes to everything; money, emotions, work, happiness, wisdom everything. No matter how hard I try there will be people ahead of me always even if I successfully take in a few who were then ahead. Some time, he'd feel ahead of all---the best but that's not it. The deduction that follows is that some part of light is blocked and so all three shadows are not clear and apparently there has only been only one behind him. Likewise, you could be emperor one day and feel superiority abandoned but then it’s time that vaguely hides the part of people ahead of you for a while, and when it would become crystal, reality would pours on you and that would lead you to the realization that no matter what, you can’t break the 3 category system of nature.